How can I trust my unfaithful husband
In a nutshell I have found out that my husband subscribed to internet sites looking for sex slaves and such. In an 18 month period he has had copious amounts of unprotected sex with at least 14 women - including role-play master/slave scenarios. He has also had an intense 'normal' affair with a work colleague.
When we were courting he was very much enamoured with me - and we shared a magnificent love.
We have seen a counsellor and we both agreed to move forward and work through the issues. However he continues with nefarious online activity - and is sexually unattracted to me (incidently - we have not been intimate for nearly 20 months). And its not that I am unattractive - tall, slim, pretty etc.
He sometimes cries and tells me that he does not know why he does what he does - then he does not recall telling me this. He tells me he wants a divorce - then he constantly calls me pleading to talk with me and saying that he can't live without me in his life.
I have known all of this since 15 September 2006 - and it has consumed me. I cry all the time, I cannot focus on work or my life in general. I have opted to constantly spy on him and investigate. Often I find nothing. If I were giving advice to someone in my situation I would tell them to leave - and that the husband is a nutter. But for some reason I feel I still love him and want to help him as I feel he is broken and depressed. If you have ever been in this sort of situation - please tell me how you handled it?