I didn't realise how much I loved him until it was too late
I've been an idiot. I went out with a guy for 2 1/2 years and I split up with him after Christmas. A few days ago I realised how much I love him and sent a long message telling him so. Except he now has a new girlfriend which I didn't know about.
The weirdest thing is, *please note I am NOT racist myself* he is quite racist and she is Indian and her father is adamant that she will have an arranged marriage. Odd.
Anyway, he knows I have suicidal tendencies and he practically laughed at me for still loving him and was very abrupt with me and said he just doesn't care anymore. He promised we could always be friends and now it seems he's doing his very best to hurt me. It's working.
The fact that he knows I have attempted suicide in the past and he's rubbing this in my face hurts so much, because I almost feel as though he's trying to kill me himself. He can't have ever loved me or he would at least do his best to be gentle about it. I appreciate he wants his space and to enjoy his new girlfriend but it hurts so, so bad.
I don't know what to do :(