Leaving a "Good" Relationship.
You can read my back story in my first post
https://www.askmehelpdesk.com/relati...st-160642.html
At the moment, my relationship seems like it is going very well, but because of the issues that I have gone through with her, I am not sure if I should continue the relationship. Just thinking about leaving her is very difficult though. It was said that she is most likely with me because I am an "emotional convenience" for her. I don't want to believe that this is the case, but I sometimes wonder if I am with her for the same reason. She is my first love, and at 19 months going, has been my longest relationship to date. Our chemistry is incredible, physically as well as our personalities. But because of the trust issues that have come up, I have begun to wonder if I am merely with her for the comfort of being with her, and am too blinded by her being my first..
I am very confused about how to feel about the situation, and what to do. Perhaps the best thing for me would be to explore other relationships, with women my own age, but I find it hard to think of leaving her now, now when it seems as though she is committing to having a real relationship..