My Girlfriend wants to take a break!
Okay here is my story...
My girlfriend and I have been dating for almost 2 years now. We have had out ups and downs like most relationships... but overall it has been great. A little backround information, is over the Summer she lifeguards over the Summer at a camp with kids ranging from 8-18 and she is (20). 3 nights ago my girlfriend called me and said that even though she wanted to spend the rest of her life with me she doesn't see that happeneing, she sees us ending on a break... the next night, we end up going on a break.
She said that she didn't want to go on a break and was ready to do it but "we need to". She said that she needs to figure out her own life and make sure that I am the one for her with no doubt in her mind. Throughout this time she is sobbing and tell me how much she loves me and she will love me forever. Earlier in our relationship we exchanged promise rings because we have a semi long distant relationship ( I love an hour away during the school year ), and she said she was going to keep the one I gave her and never take it off her wedding finger. ( guess that's a plus) She also said that she is going to be dating other guys, however not be intimate or affectionate with them... In the end she promised me that she was going to come back to me because she wanted to be with me the rest of her life...
All this to me contradicts itself... she wants space and to go date other guys yet she wants to spend the rest of her life with me?
I love this girl with every bone in my body and I thought she was my 1... The funny thing is we went on this break 2 nights ago and she came to see me and say goodbye and that she loved me yesturday morning before she left to go back to camp ( she comes home on the weekends). She then called me last night and told me she loved me, and that everything was going to be OK, and promised again that she is going to come back to me. Then she texted me gnite before she went to bed... I completely am lost at this point... She also said she wanted to see me next weekend?? I thought we are on break??
I don't get it... I have been pretty emotionally destroyed because I am so afraid of losing her, because I have given her everything that I have and It would really suck to see her find someone else that was better than me by her standards after she has told me that she wanted to spend the rest of her life with me.
Should I not answer or phone calls or texts?
Should I be busy and not see her this weekend?
If I don't answer her calls, when should I return her calls?
I need some advice like how I should be handling this...
I thank you for your responses.