how do i chose between my husband or my happiness
I have this boyfriend before and it last for 3 years and we already have a son... but the relationship didn't workout because I decided to leave... and we don't have communication at all and now I am already married and have 2 kids... in some years of my marriage I can say that I wanted to quit... we always have misunderstanding... he is trying to control me... and I simply don't know what to do... I feel that I am not happy anymore... many times I have tried to leave my husband but I always end up staying with him because of some reasons... and now lately, we have the same issue and its end up of staying away from him again and I decided to leave... after that incident, accidentally, I and my x boyfriend found each other in the net and to my surprised which is I don't know because the feeling was still there... and I found out that he is still single and he is waited for me for almost 7 years even of not having contact with him... and I can't explain because the time that I saw him and the time that we talked... that exactly the time I feel the freedom... confident... and happiness... which I never felt in my marriage... and when he knows that I am leaving my husband he wanted me back with my kids and start all over... honestly my heart wanted it so much... I am so happy... but my husband now don't want me to leave and he want us back... and promise to start fresh... I am so confused right now because we have in this situation before but nothing happen... so please help me... do I need to leave my husband and start fresh with my x boyfriend.. or stay with my husband and ignore my x... tnx