She cheated... What should I do ?
I am 22 and she is 20. We started dating 2 years ago... Things weren't that great at the beginning but we tried to work things out. Things got better and better. She was my first girlfriend so she meant a lot to me... After two years I had made her so special for myself... I would do anything for her and I truly loved her. We were a symbol for our friends and we were the perfect couple to them...
After a year and half I found out that she talks/flirts with other guys(texting and face booking) that I didn't like and she once gave her number to a guy who had hit on her. So I kind of started getting worried and I asked her to stop it but she kind of kept texting the other guy and face booking and stuff. A few times she indirectly mentioned that she wants to try dating other guys. My heart was so pure and innocent. I never tried to make her upset by flirting with other girls or anything.
Anyway 2-3 weeks before our 2nd anniversary she told me that a year ago she started going out with her ex boyfriend. The guy at that time had a girlfriend too. And she said one day we were on his car and we started kissing and making out. A few days later one of her friends tell her that that guy is a jerk and he is going out with everyone and that's the time she realizes what she has done. But she didn't tell me for a whole year.
A few months later when I was sure that she is the right one I gave her my virginity (we were both virgins) but at that time she kept it a secret. If I knew about it I would have never slept with her at all.She basically used me for a year. It really hurts when I think that I did all those sweet and romantic stuff for a girl who had cheated on me and didn't tell me about it. I gave her my virginity... I waited 21 years to find the right person...
She is all upset now and keep texting me how much she regrets that and how much I mean to her... At first she was like I'm going to go date other guys and make sure your are the one and tonight she texted me and she is like I don't want anyone but you... Well I can't trust her anymore... Our relationship is not going to be like before again... The image of she kissing the guy keeps coming to my mind and bothers me so much... I can't love her like before anymore but should I at least give a try ?
I really want this to work... We shared amazing moments together but at the same time my heart is broken... The fact that she didn't only go out with him once and the fact that she didn't tell me for a year... She not feeling guilty and texting other guys and flirting with them makes me even more upset... But I don't want all that great things to go to waste either... Am I being to emotional now ? What should I do ?