Ok, I was dating a guy for almost 2 years. He isn't my first love but my first proper relationship, physically and emotionally.
For almost 2 years things were amazing, we had our fights, obviously, but I was always grateful of him, I could never believe my luck that I had him. However, we both did start to take each other for granted, and it became a strain.
About 2 months ago we had a chat about it, we both admitted that we could work a little harder on the relationship and see if we could make it better, and if we couldn't, well then we knew what we had to do. Unfortunately, we didn't really bother trying... we STILL took each other for granted, and not long after that I got an amazing career opportunity that kind of took all of my attention and energy, and for a while I really didn't concentrate on my relationship with him.
Then, 3 weeks ago, he stayed in his friends house overnight (his female friend who has been the cause of some arguments in the past) and naturally I wasn't happy about it. The next day we were talking on the phone and he said we should meet up, he didn't think he wanted to be in the relationship anymore and thought we should meet up and talk face to face.
We broke up hours later, I agreed with him that we weren't trying anymore and it seemed like the right thing to do at the time. He suggested going on a break and not breaking up, but I said no because I didn't want us to have any false hopes because neither of us know what is going to happen in the future, and he was fine with that. After a lot of crying on both parts, I went home a single girl after a 2 year relationship.
He continued to talk to me, he would send me text messages all the time, some of them he was telling me how much he cried as I walked away, and that its really hard for him etc... And some were just friendly "hey how you doing" kind of messages.
A week after we broke up we met up and went to the movies, we had a great time together, but we ended up having sex. We continued to talk every day again, and we met up again, just trying to remain friends. We didn't have sex that time but we fooled around.
When I suggested that we give each other our stuff back he said he didn't want to, and when I suggested getting back together he said he didn't want to. But now he has agreed to give our stuff back, although he said it would put him in bad form because it is "so official".
I'm really confused, he did say that he doesn't want to get back with me, but at the same time I feel like he is sending me mixed signals and I don't know where I stand.
I love him so much and I miss him dearly. Please help me.
Jay