Originally Posted by M0MMYX3
Hi there,
No, you are not crazy!
You mentioned an earlier suicide attempt. Are you in counseling? A counselor might be able to suggest an anger management class, or maybe some sessions with your mom. I forgot if you said how old you were, you also mentioned a "he?" Is that your dad, or stepdad?
Just remember, when you feel that you are going to harm something (or someone), remember HALT. Hungry, Angry, Lonely, and Tired. If you are any one of those things (or all of them!), stop! Just stop what you are doing. If you can, go to your room, or someplace quiet, so that you can think. Call a friend, take a walk, play with your dog. (or get a dog, so that you will have something to take care of!, and that will need a lot of walking.)
Go easy on yourself! I know, I am almost 50 (ouch!), and I am hardest on myself, I think. Then I have to ask myself, especially if it's regarding the kids, "Will this matter in 6 months?" If the answer is no, then I let it go.
Take care of yourself! Have a plan outlined with a friend, if you feel suicidal.
Hang in there!
m.