I simply don't feel so good about myself.
To be frank, I'm the type of guy who was picked on and looked down on by everyone in high school. I'm pretty shy at times but not always. I can carry a conversation easily and people have admitted I'm easy to approach. However, I'm probably too trusting. My cousin saw this in me and took advantage of my trust. My father was rather abrasive to me while growing up and my mother isn't the most emotionally reliable person. My sister doesn't really respect me. I'm so fed up with her yelling at me or playing "tricks" on me that I just don't talk to her anymore. I don't have a ton of friends but I have a pretty good few that I really trust and treat me with respect.
I decided to post on this website because I realized I have a consistent pattern of becoming very emotionally needy in my head when dating girls. I don't act needy during a date... but I get impatient during the offtimes between dates. I know this is probably something to do with me not having a strong foundation.
I've struggled to make myself a better person. I've gotten active in hobbies, taken up some classes, and I'm taking on some new work that I'm proud of. However, the feeling of anger and low self-value keeps creeping up on me. I feel that writing this down and sharing is the first step in helping myself. I just don't know what to do after that.