I am currently a freshman in high school. I feel trapped in my young body as my mind has matured many years from my body. I have to take care of my 57 year old mother, and my grandparents. Everyone expects me to be perfect. Both sides of family (mom's and dad's) cause more drama then I can stand. My grandfather has oxygen, and my mother has told me he's probably going to die soon. My mother vents to me and cries on my shoulder. She's well overweight so I try to help her, as she has ASKED me to, and she yells at me for it. Most of the time, I feel like HER mother. I don't think it's fair to have a baby so you can have it take care of you. She had a knee replacement, and I was the one alone with her taking care of her. My mom's family ignores me, really, I can say Uncle Scott, Uncle Scott, Uncle Scott, and then tap him on the shoulder, and he won't respond. Same with all of them. My father's family is wonderful, but I never get to see any of them... EVER. I feel trapped. I feel like I have so many responsibilities of an adult, I even have to manage money or my mother will spend it all on junk, and then I don't get any pleasures. I've tried to kill myself twice already, then realized that was a stupid idea. I've drank before, it made me feel better for about 30 seconds. So I started just cutting to cut, and piercing things. I want out of my body, I want my freedom, but there's nothing I can do.