I'm 20 years old and graduated university 6 months ago with great scores so naturally the next step anyone would opt for is to apply for jobs/do an internship. Now I started doing part time jobs because I wanted new experiences and got a bit carried away thinking about the easy money. Currently, I'm not doing anything and in order for me to apply for a job I need to complete a certain task and this one is an elephant which I'm not willing to cut and swallow just yet. There's too much to do. The other problem is that I feel like maybe this is not my field of interest and I may have a made a mistake choosing that subject but also I know I want to be somewhere around this field.
Sometimes I also feel like I fear the idea of working and maybe sucking at it.
I'm willing to get out of my comfort zone and have new experiences but something just does not feel right about me. I feel lost, out of focus and numb and that's why I need direction.
Please help me.