Boyfriend cheated and now he doesn't want to be physical
My boyfriend and I are planning on marrying each other in two years, after we've both graduated from college. We are both virgins, but have stimulated each other manually a number of times. However, he recently cheated on me and feels so guilty that he doesn't want to be physical with me AT ALL anymore... not even "making out." He says he wants to wait until we're married. To me, I feel like I was hurt, and now I'm being punished for hurting, and I don't understand it. I have talked to him about it, have told him how by rejecting me and pushing me away whenever I try to initiate anything he makes me feel unwanted... but he won't budge, even though I have told him again and again that I have forgiven him. He's not trying to be mean about it, he just says it's what he feels he has to do. But I miss being able to show him I love him in physical ways, and miss the same from him. I want to be able to respect his space, but also feel that I need more than just a peck on the cheek from time to time. How can I help him find the redemption he needs without sacrificing all of my physical desires? I refuse to accept that it will be two more years before I can passionately kiss the man I love.