Hard to think of this as a learning experience, but that is what it was. At 14, everything is new, awkward, and confusing.
As you grow through relationships, you will learn about partners. And as you mature, you will learn not to settle for people that have traits and characteristics that you don't share, i.e. they are racist, superficial.
With age, you narrow down the compatibility end. And going through the ups and downs of learning what makes a compatible partner, becomes easier.
Like the rest of us, you will go through many relationships, and suffer a lot more than you are feeling now.
And, even 20 years from now, you could be married with two kids, a mortgage, and a 9-5 job, and love your wife and family and job, but also like the rest of us, you will slip into that comfortable place, called 'the past'. And, it's an okay place to be, because it is a safe place, before all the hardships of living took over.
You may think of this girl from time to time, and you will realize how sweet a time it was with her, at that time in your life. I think we all do that. First loves are very special.
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