Hi,
I am Sylvaan. I am 24 years old living away from my family for my work as a software professional,
I am a very emotional type of a person.While I was studying college I fell in first sight love with my college mate
Which later ended up as nothing as that girl refused to accept me.I had to struggle a lot to come out of that pain.
Later I joined my current company and after few days I was little attracted to a girl who was really beautiful but I
Hesitated to talk to her and I was always thinking her ver special among others and I will always look into my shift
Schedule to look if she is also there in same shift with me.
But one day I came to know that she had already been in a relationship with a person who later deceived her by not
Marrying her.
Then again she had fallen in love with another person and again that person also left her. Now she became close to me
As a friend and she speaks very well to me. She always wants to go for a break with me and she perceives me as a very
Special and good person and she is very happy with her friendship with me.But right from beginning I had love for her
Which became very intense now and I always think about her. I lost my sleep, appetite and I feel like it is almost
Impossible for me to get her because she has already been failure in 2 relationships and she would never dare to go
For one more and also I am from different religion so even if she accepts there will be hell a lot of problems.
When I think all these I am feeling like dying and I often think of suicide. Now my position is like I am unable to
Express my thing to her as she is acting extremely nice towards me and to the extent that even if are in meeting and
We were asked to express views on each other she will always mention me in whatever reason and I can guess very easily
That I am a very special friend to her. In this situation if I propose her for my sake it would definitely hurt her and
Destroy our friendship which is the least I can enjoy from my beloved.
I am so much confused now to decide anything and I have lost almost all controls of me life and living like a dead body.
I am ready to take any psychiatric medication also if any available.
Please guide me in this concern considering me as your friend as it would help me to live my life ahead.

Thanks in advance,

Perhaps you might try some counseling as you seem to fall deeply for the first girl who pays attention to you.
This young lady has come off two bad relationships and she knows she doesn't need another one. You don't need one either.
Medicine is not the cure for everything but counseling may help you quite a bit. Do something in your life apart from this girl, slowly separate yourself or at least limit the time you spend with her.

I think u should try once... and let her understand that every time situation is not the same as before...