Okay, i refuse to give out any major details because im afraid someone i know might read this.
I'm 15 years old and currently in a sexual relationship with my boyfriend. The only thing that worries me about being in a relationship right now, is that I fear I'm suffering from panic attacks :( For instance, if I get embarrassed about something that my boyfriend has done, I'll get really upset and start to cry. The problem is that if I cry to hard or try my hardest not to, then I can't breathe properly so I start to panic. When I start panicing I can barely breathe. My body starts to shake or randomly jerk and sometimes it can be really painful. My body may go stiff or limp, and if I get to the point where I go limp then I faint.
What really upsets me and worries me the most is that I don't know how I'm going to react to people being around me. Like one time, my boyfriend tried to comfort me and calm me down by hugging me and talking calmly to me, and I began to relax, however another time, I lashed out at him, and another time I felt clostraphobic and fainted. What my boyfriend said to me is that I won't talk to him during the panic attack, so he doesn't know what to do, and to be honest neither do I :(
I don't know what I'm going to do or how I'm going to react, so I can't be sure how to tell my boyfriend what to do if it happens again. Im worried for his safety and mine.
Please help me