Originally Posted by James Day
That's hard. Did your parents eventually accept your brother, or are they still unaccepting of his lifestyle?
Are you at all attracted to girls, or do you think you are because it would be easier, more acceptable?
You're really young, sexuality at 15 is hard enough without having to decide what your preference is.
I wish I could tell you, but this is something you have to figure out for yourself. I just don't see how you're going to get a boyfriend unless you come out.
Are there any teen meeting places in your area? How about teen gay support groups? I know you said you didn't want to do that, but it might help you figure things out, as well as giving you the opportunity to meet other gay guys your age.
Don't let this get you down, I know, not easy, but you'll be okay. Just remember, no matter what others say, you are who you are, your sexuality doesn't define you, it's who you are, not what you are that matters. :)
If you want to talk, we're here. There are a lot of other kids on this site that are going through the same thing you are, so look around at other questions, they may help you over this bump.