I need some help my mum and 2 little brothers hate me they always turn against me I feel lonely I'm always seen as the so-called "BAD ONE" nothing I do is right I get shouted at everyday, my mum is depressed and ill so I help her and get shouted at she falls asleep with cigarettes because of her medicine and I wake up late at night worrying the house will burn down so I go in her room and make sure the cigarette gets put out, she puts me down all the time her ex boyfriend 1 of my brothers dads use to beat me and she didn't care and she don't care about me she says nasty things about me to her mates it hurts me I feel so down and angry and 1 of my brothers is 15 every time he come home from school and see's me he starts on me seriously harassing me and calling me fat and stuff for no reason if I shout at him or hit him my mum hits me I'm 17 she tells me to go to my room all the time I feel like KILLING MYSELF!! My own father didn't want me he can't handle responcibility my mum tells me to start going out with friends and when I do she shouts at me I can't handle this anymore!! someone please help me I'm starting to feel like this something mentally wrong with me??

Also I don't like talking about this but I was raped by some guy that I know he won't leave me alone stalks me evrywhere I go even college and eyes me up it makes me feel arghhh so disgusting and I told my mother in confidence she didn't care at all but my grandma helps me a lot she's more of a mum to me than she'l ever be to me and my mum doesn't like me going college and I said I was moving out 1 day when she punched me in the head and she started panicking and begging me not to leave and I felt bad and sorry for her but now I realise she's guilt tripping me :( some one help me please!!

If you're being abused than you need to report it. If your mother is unfit than you shouldn't be forced to put up with that.

There's nothing wrong with you.

The good news is that you're 17. When you're 18 you can leave, you'll be an adult.

So you have a few choices. You can call CPS, and if they find that you're in an unsafe home, they'll remove you and put you in foster care until you turn 18. You can stay, say nothing, concentrate on your school work, do well, and when you're 18 find a job and leave.

Thanks very much Alty - I just don't want to feel guilty for my brothers in case they go in to care because I do everything for them cook them dinner stc and they still don't care just gang up on me with my mum I was going to move out my grandma ( mums mum) phoned housing place for me and told them my mums bad to me and they contacted social services and a social worker was worried but I just said it was a 1 off so I didn't upset my mum.

So you had the opportunity to make your life better, to get out, and you lied to social services and said everything is fine?

Sounds like you made your choice then.

You had a way out of this and chose not to take it. Move in with your grandmother if you still can until you go to college. Call social service and tell them you were trying to protect your mom. Your siblings need to be protected. You are not crazy and you do have a choice.