[theonenonly]

Right now I feel utterly discontent with my life. I feel like I've failed in every way possible so far and I have nothing left to look forward to. I don't know if I'm depressed or not, but I'm very sad with my circumstances.

You see I got a job about 8 months ago, I went into it head on with a very focused mind and I knew my goals. However, I got consummated by my influencing coworkers in a very bad way. I fell for someone on the job and pursued him. Even though I know in my heart the truth of the matter, I need closure. The worst part is I hung out with other eligible coworkers and they do nothing but make me paranoid about the situation, (Are they talking about me? Laughing at me? Making fun of me?) I decided to cut them all off and I feel very sad about it now. I don't know who I am anymore. My direction in life is cloudy and I feel like I have nothing to live for. Why have I let this take over my thoughts on a daily basis? I think it's because I have very strong feelings for someone and I'm very worried about what they think of me. I haven't been working there for over a month now, and I'm still not over it, or him.

I need to find a way to realize my goals again and to make them come to life. While growing up, my aspirations were all I had, but now, I feel like I have nothing left. I need some very strong inspiration to move on. I need to get through this. Any thoughts?

[fustrated]

Right now I feel utterly discontent with my life. I feel like I've failed in every way possible so far and I have nothing left to look forward to. I don't know if I'm depressed or not, but I'm very sad with my circumstances.

You see I got a job about 8 months ago, I went into it head on with a very focused mind and I knew my goals. However, I got consummated by my influencing coworkers in a very bad way. I fell for someone on the job and pursued him. Even though I know in my heart the truth of the matter, I need closure. The worst part is I hung out with other eligible coworkers and they do nothing but make me paranoid about the situation, (Are they talking about me? Laughing at me? making fun of me?) I decided to cut them all off and I feel very sad about it now. I don't know who I am anymore. My direction in life is cloudy and I feel like I have nothing to live for. Why have I let this take over my thoughts on a daily basis? I think it's due to the fact that I have very strong feelings for someone and I'm very worried about what they think of me. I haven't been working there for over a month now, and I'm still not over it, or him.

I need to find a way to realize my goals again and to make them come to life. While growing up, my aspirations were all I had, but now, I feel like I have nothing left. I need some very strong inspiration to move on. I need to get through this. Any thoughts?

Hello Theonenonly
You are not alone, many of us feel some of the same feelings, It is normal to feel blue.
I think that it is possible that you are getting depressed but many of us do. The key is to get help before it is too late. It is easy to get help by a family doctor, and I would like you to realize that every day is a new day and old wounds heal and new wonderful things will happen tomorrow.
I hope you talk to your doctor, he can and will help you find yourself.
Best of luck to you
fustrated