[jenthehen]

Married for six years with no kids. I don't feel the love for my husband that I feel for my best friend now. Not sure if I ever have. I feel like I forced sex on my friend, I told him I loved him and he loves me, and every day I'm with my husband I know it hurts him. I don't want to continue my marriage anymore but I suppose I fear the outcome if I get a divorce. I know I can't live with my husband forever, and I know I don't want to. We feel like roomates, we married because we were lonely, I've had an affair, what am I waiting for? I've never opened up to my husband emotionally but I can open up to my friends. I fear him, but we have fun. I don't care if my husband has sex with other women, but I get jealous if my friend does. My husband and I have a dead sex life, my friend and I are amazing together. I don't want kids with my husband. EVER. But with my friend I can see us having kids. I dress up for my friend, but not my husband. I have more fun without my husband. I want a divorce, what am I waiting for? :confused:

[He_comes_with_baggage]

I don't know what you are waiting for. I think there most be something holding you back maybe its just you don't want to have to actually tell him you want a divorce maybe your scared to?

[grammadidi]

You probably know that your friend is NOT the one either.

Didi

[jenthehen]

I dunno what you are waiting for. I think there most be something holding you back maybe its just you don't want to have to actually tell him you want a divorce maybe your scared to?

I am scared to. Shouldn't anyone be afraid of divorce?

[jenthehen]

You probably know that your friend is NOT the one either.

Didi

Whether he is the one or not, I realize my husband isn't either.

[grammadidi]

What is it about divorce that scares you? You don't have a marriage. It doesn't even sound like you a have any connection at all with him? Why did you marry him? Is there anything there worth fighting for... saving... improving??

Didi

[jenthehen]

What is it about divorce that scares you? You don't have a marriage. It doesn't even sound like you a have any connection at all with him? Why did you marry him? Is there anything there worth fighting for... saving... improving???

Didi

I am afraid of being alone. He was there when my father passed and I loved my father so much, and I suppose that is what I love about him, but I know that's not an excuse. I married him out of loneliness and I thought he was cheating on me, and wanted him to myself. I don't want to be married but I don't know how to put it.

[grammadidi]

It sounds to me that you could really benefit from some counseling... first on your own, and once you figure things out some couple's counseling with him. A good therapist can either help you make it work, or help it end in a positive way.

Didi