[Thinkaboutit]

I'm not really sure why I'm writing this I really don't want to be judged by anyone but I need some advise. I'm totally stuffing up my life doing stuff I know I shouldn't but can't seem to stop, I have tried but its hard I can't sleep, I feel sick so I just keep on doing it to feel better. I want to stop but don't know how. My parents are totally pissed with me don't blame them stuff I done to them but they don't understand I can't talk to them either of them. How can I change the way I am and the stuff I do without feeling so horrible

[Wondergirl]

What stuff? Please give details.

[Thinkaboutit]

That was very vague didn't really give much info so here goes I take pills mostly pain pills sometimes other stuff what ever I can get really I like the feeling I get when I'm on them don't need to worry about anything else. I smoke pot sometimes, I drink and smoke. I want to stop all of it but its hard. I feel so horrible when I'm not on the pills not even the pot makes me feel better. I could easily give up some things but not others I don't know how to. I don't want to tell me parents they are not together and they don't need anymore crap from me. Help what do I do

[J_9]

You are addicted. This won't go away on its own and you do need help. It's time to talk to your parents so they can get you in rehab before you overdose.

[Thinkaboutit]

I don't think I'm addicted I do want to stop. I don't think I'll overdose I don't take heaps of pills at once only 3 or 4. I can't tell my parents seriously they would kill me I'd be better of killing myself then deal with them.

[Thinkaboutit]

What's rehab like is it the only way to stop can't I just like do something else. If I just stop taking them do you know how Long it will make me feel sick for it makes me feel horrible.

[Wondergirl]

How old are you? Do you live with either parent or both of them? in the U.S.?

[Thinkaboutit]

I'm 15 I stay with me dad, nar I live in australia. Me mum sent me to live with me dad thought I'd be better off. Don't think she'll ever let me come back. Not that I'd want to anyway.

[J_9]

Where are you getting these pills from?

[Thinkaboutit]

If I don't stop taking the pills mainly the oxy and tramadol will it do any long term damage to me? I could stop the rest straight out. Maybe cut down them stop

[J_9]

Of course they will cause long term damage. So who is giving you these pills?

[Thinkaboutit]

I just buy them from kids at school you can always find something. What kind of damage I know that's a stupid question but I kind of thought if they were prescription they could be that bad.

[J_9]

If you are abusing oxy and tram afoul you risk death. Yes, I said death.

You also risk some serious jail time by buying them from kids at school. That is illegal.

[Thinkaboutit]

Wow that's scary but its not like it's that easy to stop I've tried to just not take anything and I feel horrible. I don't know what to do, maybe ill just cut down first I don't know

[J_9]

Stopping oxy and tram adom will make you very sick for a short time. Rehab is best because it is controlled and you get treatment to learn how to avoid triggers that will make you want to start again.

You can die just by taking one oxy. They are very addictive. At 15 I'm not sure you can do this on your own.

[Thinkaboutit]

I didn't think it could be that bad I mean doctors give this stuff to people not like I take heaps of them thought they would be better than the ecstasy or acid I use to use don't know what's it them

I don't understand what are triggers. If its only a short while how long is that

[Wondergirl]

Triggers -- what happens to make you want to take something to stop pain or make you feel better?

[catonsville]

I didn't think it could be that bad I mean doctors give this stuff to people not like I take heaps of them thought they would be better than the ecstasy or acid I use to use don't know what's it them

I don't understand what are triggers. If its only a short while how long is that

Junior, let me say this J9 is telling you the truth if you don't get that" Monkey" off your back the people in Aus. will be reading about you in the local paper. You know nothing about what you are doing to yourself and bigger and smarter people than you have tried. You can read about them all the time. So talk to your dad and get into rehab. Believe me talking to your dad will be like a walk in the park compared to what will happen if you don't. Maybe one day you will look back and say I did the right thing. Good Luck Bloke.

[J_9]

I didn't think it could be that bad I mean doctors give this stuff to people not like I take heaps of them thought they would be better than the ecstasy or acid I use to use don't know what's it them

I don't understand what are triggers. If its only a short while how long is that

Yes, doctors prescribe these meds to people. People who are in intense pain and need this. They don't just give them out because people want them.

So, you are getting them from kids at school. Ever wonder where these kids get them? Most likely they are stealing them from parents or grandparents. They are stealing them from people who need them.

Where I live very few doctors prescribe oxy any more because it is so extremely addictive.

Now, ow, you can continue to essentially steal these pain meds from people who need them, or get yourself into rehab before your father has to write your obituary.

[Thinkaboutit]

Talking to my dad might seem like the best way to go but trust me its not he wouldn't even be able to afford to get me help so no point even talking to him he hates me anyway thinks I'm too much like me mum ha if only he knew. I really don't want either of them to know want to be able to stop on me own do it myself.