[keeks143]

Since I was little, me and my Mum have always been very close. I used to tell her everything, But since I was 11, I have been self harming, and kept it a secret, but confided in my two best friends. One night, when I was 13, I was feeling like if I got out of bed, I would do something stupid, so I lay in bed as I texted my friend to tell her I was scared because I wanted to kill myself. My friend panicked and called my mum, who called me (I was away at a relative's) and asked me what was up. I said nothing, and she left it at that. Later though, my school found out, because my friend told them. I was called by the school protection officer and they called my parents. It was only then my mum found out about my self harm. She was upset as I didn't tell her, and hurt too. She began to blame herself, even though I didn't self harm because of her, or anyone in my family. Now, she doesn't trust me. She's always checking my arms and wrists, and I hate it. I know she's looking out for me though. Recently we have been arguing at a lot. At my therapy, she found out about my suicidal feelings and now is even more upset. I feel so bad, and I don't feel comfortable around her anymore. We continue to argue every day about something, and it just reinforces my point at to why I felt more comfortable telling my friends than my own parents. I can just see us drifting apart and I'm worried. Does anybody know what I can do? I do recognise that there's not going to be any list of steps or anything, though.

[Fr_Chuck]

You hide and lied very serious things to your mom. She is trying to care for you. Perhaps if you started talking to her, and was honest with her, about all your feelings, then a lot of the issues would stop.

You are doing now, hiding things from mom, like you have for a long time. Are you discussing that in counseling ?

[J_9]

How old are you now?