[ciliumar14]

I'm have been emotionally abused since I was little. By my dad and mom. Everybody at school thinks I'm perfectly fine and happy. But in truth I hide what I'm feeling in fear that I will get hurt by other people. I moved from my dads place to my mom. I didn't move willing because I had to leave all my friend that helped me. But after a while I was happy because I thought that I would be abused there but I was wrong.

My mother is bipolar and changes her moods to fast. When I wss seven she tried to kill me with one pf those huge knives. Nothing changed my mother and dad they just like yelling. I got emotionally abused by my dad because I look like my mother. And I'm getting emotionally abused my.my mother because she's bipolar . I just want to know if there's a way I can leave without them knowing and if we don't have to go to court for it. Since I moved in with her I felt lile killing myself every time I see an razor. I just want to kill myself I feel worthless. I sometimes wished I wasn't born. My own brother told me that I should just die and that nobody wanted me and that he wished I was six feet under. He also said that he wants to beat me up.

I just want to leave I tried contacting the CPS but they didn't do anything. Please please help me. I need a way out. I can't be here anymore. I'm not going to commit suicide because I'm not wasting my life on them. I just want a way that I can leave and never see them again.

Please please help. I'll take any suggestion that will help me.

[busymomma2013]

I am very sorry to hear that this is happening to you.

Is there a school consoler or teacher that you could talk to about your problems at home?

When your mom tried to "kill" you with "one of those big knives", did the local authorities get involved?

[Wondergirl]

I too am sorry you are going through this with the two people who should be in your corner and protecting you. Is your mom taking meds for her bipolar illness? If not, what is she doing to improve her life (since this impacts more than just you)?

[ciliumar14]

No the police weren't called or anything

She doesn't take any meds and she don't try to better herself. And I'm the only one she treats like that because my brother is old enough to. Take care of himself and all.

[busymomma2013]

Does your older brother live on his own? Perhaps, if he does, you could go stay with him for a while.

[Wondergirl]

How do you know she is bipolar? Bipolar sufferers don't usually go after someone with a knife. That would be a different mental illness. Or maybe she was just frustrated?

Is there a relative you could live with for a while?

[ciliumar14]

She is and she probably was frustrated but she still had no right to try to kill me. and there is nobody i can stay with.

He only seventeen and he he one who said he wished I was six feet under and that nobody wants me and that he wished I was dead.

[MommaJoe2]

Sweetie, go to school. Talk to a counselor at school. Tell a teacher. Tell them you are afraid. Do you have a close grandparent, aunt, uncle, etc. who will help you? Bottom line: You need help and cannot go through all of this alone. Help is available. Reach out to others.

[leila89]

How old are you hun? Maybe get part time job if you can and start saving so you can start to become independent and perhaps move out. I did at 17, not easy but so worth it, what I learnt is that you have to look after yourself and help yourself. And please don't ever hurt yourself in any way because this is just a moment in your life even though it looks like a never ending nightmare. All the best <3

[Alty]

When was your mother diagnosed with bi-polar disorder, or is she self diagnosing?

How old are you?

Where is your other family, grandparents, Aunts, Uncles, anyone?