Guys this is weird.
And yeah, I know you all will be like - "what the f---???"
But here goes.
See, my dad was working in another country, when I was like 12. So I lived with my mom those days.
When my voice started to change, I started talking to everybody with that new voice, except my parents. My mom sometimes made fun of me, like - we would get with some other families on some holiday, you know, I would play PC with my friends, and my mom would overhear a conversation I had with my friends and say something to her friends like - "Look, see how he talks with his friends? Now watch this" Then she would ask me something, and of course I made a mistake of answering her with my unchanged voice. She'd say something like "see, told you ha ha" to her friends.
I just felt really embarrassed.
Then also, in school I would talk with my masculine voice, when my mom wouldn't be there. That's how I got into this weird habit of using my changed voice everywhere except not with my parents around.
Then my dad finally came back after 3 years. I still was talking to him with that squeky voice. Then came the embarrasements. My mom wouldn't make fun of me anymore, but maybe because I'd just be more careful and not go and have fun in noisy places with my parents. Oh my God...
Yeah, so see, and the problem for 2 years now is that I still talk with that quiet squeky voice to my parents, they ALWAYS reask me what I said. We have to turn down the volume of music in order for me to say something, I won't talk when my parents are with their friends, because it'll just seem bogus. A guy of 5*7 talking like a hamster.
And at school, and everywhere where my parents can't posibly know how I talk, I talk masculine.
It's like an obsession. God.
Anything to say to help me? PLease? I'll answer all your questions.
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