[allydrozdz]

Now I know this is just the trick of so called attention seekers, but to have someone to vent out to would be nice. I feel like I can't enjoy life anymore. As I've lived, I've been a victim of bad luck and missed out on a lot of opportunities which now can no longer be taken. Although to some extent I'm satisfied with certain aspects of my life, for example, being in a relationship, with a healthy sex life and open communication, I still feel there are certain things missing. I just want to reach out and try new things, like traveling to foreign places, hit as many music festivals as I want, meet my favourite celebrity for the first time, and the list goes on. I just can't seem to face it; the fact that it might be years before I get to visit different places, the fact that I can't afford to go to as many festivals as I'd like, the fact that I will probs never meet the person I like so much, even just for one day at least, and so forth, et cetera. It's so painful and bugging me like hell.

[smoothy]

Do you have a Psychologist right you you visit? Perhaps consider seeing one... they can help you will issues such as this. Some things you can't do yourself... and living with something that can be treated is wasting years you will never get back.

There is no shame in seeking help... or getting it.