[Adrian3102]

Thanks I understand what you are saying. I guess your right the more I get to know her the easier it will become I just need to think more posative

[CravenMorhead]

I suppose that would be heaps easier to write it down. Would they let me do that. I'm not to sure why I'm going I can't see myself really being able to do this but I'll keep going.

One of the things that really help me when I was doing some counselling was keeping a honest journal. Writing down all the little things and being brutally honest about it.

My problem is that my brain likes to jump around and remind me off all the embarrassing stuff I have done. All the times I have fell short. How I will never be the person I want to be. I started to write down what caused these feelings, what the thoughts here, what the feelings were and why what happened was perfectly fine. So long as it is private you can write whatever you want. I found it clarified a lot of my thoughts too, put feeling into word and allowed me to tease it out instead of dwelling on it. You might be surprised what you find in it.

I think it is a little off topic. I have been reading this thread since near the start, but didn't really think I was qualified enough to add anything.

I feel for you. I know the next little bit is going to suck a lot. It does get better. This might go away or it might not. After a little bit it just won't be relevant any more. Life goes on and you will make of it what you will.

Just don't let this govern your life.

[Wondergirl]

one of the things that really help me when I was doing some counselling was keeping a honest journal. Writing down all the little things and being brutally honest about it.

1) A brutally honest journal would be private, like you say, for no one's eyes but her own. 2) What Scott and I are saying, since she is somewhat uncomfortable talking about this with a stranger (the counselor), is to print out this thread and show it to the counselor or 3) write down a list at home that she is willing to share with the counselor OR 4) she and the counselor have a silent session where all they do is write back and forth to each other.

[dontknownuthin]

Don't give up on counseling. It's uncomfortable to talk about such personal things with anyone but it's worthwhile. And they don't just offer instant remedies. Go several times and if you're not connecting or feeling it's helping, try someone else.