[Jennygirlyy]

When I was younger, my brother used to molest. At the time, I didn't know it was molestation, I didn't put it together until not too long ago. I'm not sure when the molestation started, the earliest I remember is 5 years old but it might have been before then. My brother and I shared a bedroom when we were 5-9. He was a year old than me. I remember he used to tell me we were playing a game and he would touch me, and I'd have to show him my privates. I knew I couldn't tell my mom because I knew it was bad but inside my heart I guess I figured my brother wouldn't hurt me, I didn't really know what I was doing I guess. I always felt like it was my fault though. I do remember, in kindergarten I got in trouble for humping a chair and I remember I would hump the pillows too. I don't know if that had to do with it as well.

It stopped when I was about 9, but I just recently put it together. I'm 16 now. Most of my childhood is kind of blanked out, maybe that's why. I started researching on it and I'm not putting things together. I also crave attention from guys. I don't have a boyfriend, never have, but I've always dreamed about it. I also did some stuff with a guy I regret doing simply because he told me I was pretty and complimented me.

I'm not sure if the molestation really affected me or what I should do?

I realized I do get really jealous/upset when my parents act like he's an angel. I get in trouble for the dumbest things and he never gets in trouble for anything, maybe I have hidden resentment to him. I'm not really sure. I'm just confused to be honest. Thanks

[Fr_Chuck]

Tell your parents and get into counseling

[teacherjenn4]

You need to tell your parents. If you feel you cannot, find a counselor at school and speak to him or her.