[cmutert]

Okay so I am 19 years of age, almost 20. I'm a girl who likes to have fun and hang out with friend, but we don't really do awhole lot besides get ed or something. And then when it someone's I see almost all the time. I never really have anything to say or when they try and make a joke I am just blah and make a fake chuckle or say "mhm" because frankly, I don't what to say or don't know what to talk about. I mean, what is there really to talk about? And Don't tell me hobbies, movies, etc because I prob already know a good friends hobbies. I just don't feel like I am very social and wish I was. I recently, just dropped most of my friends because they are doing stuff I don't like or backstab/talk about others that sort of thing and I was tired of having those problems but they were people I was really comfortable with. I don't know, even my family, brother, uncle people I am really close with I never what to say or talk about, I basically sit there in an akward since and talk about dumb . Oh about my hair or whatever. I am confused? What is someone's advice? Should I go to a doctor? I want to a happier person and more exciting, I see lots of people joking smiling and being energetic I guess but I more blah, people even say I sound monotone or the look on my face looks like I am angry when I am even in a great moood