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Oct 1, 2012, 05:12 PM
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Will it get better?
Yes, another dramatic, hormone confused teen wanting some form of comfort from a stranger. I'm sorry in advance.
Well, let's break down my problems quickly so I'm not here crying about how bad it all is, okay. So most of the time, I'll admit I'm pretty content, I wouldn't say I'm in a state of depression or anything, but anyway. Let's start at where I began getting worries.
Okay, so I was pretty much as happy as can be about.. a year ago. Just over, had a girlfriend, had great friends and then I met another guy, whom I shall call Tony for the time being, since after all. It seems like a douche name. (No offense intended to any non-douche Tony's <3) Anyway, we had the same interests and stuff, we became best friends. Life was even better. Okay, then he got involved with my girlfriend too much, and yeah after a year of being with her I found out that she cheated on me for him, anyway. I got over that I guess.
We got around to talking, I could never hold a grudge, no matter how much I hate him. And here's why: He's one of the most popular people in the school, EVERYBODY admires him. He's pretty much one of the tallest and toughest guys out there, and oh look, SMART. Jealous would be an understatement, and why do I feel like he just wants my life destroyed?
When it first happened, we fell out, I became alone in school, he got everyone against me and twisted the story. Who would believe me after all? Anyway, I have no idea how, but we ended up back as friends again, and trust me. I will never forgive him for the true twisted son of a he is. My fake laughs and smiles at his jokes is to just fit in, and I feel like, my life is not mine anymore.
Continuing, he's still with her to this day, and she goes around bragging how I mistreated her and such. He also goes behind my back to call me names and say how bad I am to ANY girl. (Bearing in mind I've never had a girlfriend after her still. Nor' do I really crave one.) My friends admire him, and I often find myself alone when realizing just how liked I am.
Anyway, okay, get this. I end up in a new sort of group, it's okay I guess. It gets me through the school days, and their's this girl there who talks to me now and then, and I guess he must of seen this. Okay, I can promise that he did cheat on my ex while she was with me, and that he also did this. He started talking to that girl on Facebook and asked if she had sex with her ex, which was some guy, and she said yeah. He then said she could have done a lot better, LIKE HIM. He THEN at the same night this happened, came on Skype to me to call her a whore, saying that SHE said that.
I've seen the chat, and now here's my question(s). Why doesn't anybody else see him for the monster he is? Why am I made out to be the bad guy? Or, am I the bad guy? Is this my fault?
I plan on moving away from this place as soon as I can. Perhaps join the army. I'm not all depressed over it, I know it probably will get better, but it's dawning on me.
When I leave secondary school, which is VERY close, and perhaps go to college or 6th form, etc. Will it get better? Will I meet other friends, or by then will they have their own groups and such. I guess I can try joining with others, but I find it hard.
I also have the dream to travel if I don't join the army. Perhaps move to America. (Currently in the UK) Which I know is extremely hard, but will that give me opportunities to meet other friends.
Is it so much to ask for a happy life?
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