[Emma_ox]

Hi. Basically I am a 20 year old nursing student in my second year. I have recently come back from a weeks holiday in Egypt were I suffered quite badly with dehydration on the last day, for some reaosn this has set my anxiety off! This has made university a really big struggle for me this year. I absolutely dred going into my lectures in case I have a panic attack, I don't feel asthough I'm getting much support from my friends at uni either. Every time I take a day off I get aload of questions as to why I haven't come in which makes me feel worse. I don't even want to know what my attendance is. Were only really allowed to have 10 days of for the whole year maximum! But I have definitely taken more than 10 days. The more days I miss the worse I feel, as I just know I'm going to be kicked of the course. I have actually informed my teachers at university of how I've been feeling, and they have been quite supportive. However, there's only so much they can do for me. I don't want to fail as I don't want my family to be disapointed in me. I feel asthough this is my future I'm ruining. Not only that, I have placement at the end of this month and I don't feel asthough ill be able to face going in. On placement you can sometimes see quite stressfull things and I don't feel like I can face it! Ive even wondered if nursing is the right career path for me, or if I'm only thinking this because of how I'm feeling at the moment. I just don't feel happy or myself at the moment, I'm really scared I'm going to ruin everything. I haven't told my parents yet as I don't even know were id start, and theyd probably think I was being silly. I feel like such a failure at the moment, and I'm getting angry at myself for how I'm feeling because its just not me at all, and I can't seem to pull myself out of it.
Advice needed!!

[smearcase]

My impression is that you very well may have chosen the wrong career path. If you feel panicked about your schooling environment now, how will you react to real medical situations and emergencies? Talk to a counselor and either decide to buckle down and give it a real try or possibly find out if you can transfer the credits you have already earned toward another field. Possibly you just need to mature somewhat but the continued very borderline performance now can affect your future.