I know what went wrong, do I still have a hope in hell?
So I've been seeing this girl for about 7 months, things moved lightning fast, I think faster then we were both comfortable with... Due to some financial trouble that I had just after christmas and some legal issues I was having with my former landlord we talked about moving in together. A month later I was totally moved in, things were going beyond amazingly well. We did have some issues sexually after a couple of months but we talked and worked through everything that we thought was a problem. I know where I went wrong with this girl, I got comfortable way too fast... now she needs her space, OK, I get that. After thinking about it I'm feeling the same way. The house is small and there is almost no escape. I felt this was going to be an issue with her from day one, she is unbelievably independent, lived alone with nothing but her 8 year old son and her younger sister for support and no real financial support other then a crap paying job at a day car.
We're both feeling overwhelmed with everything. And last night she asked me to find an apartment and be out by the end of the month. I objected for obvious reasons, my feelings are beyond hurt. I didn't know how to feel about it. I started wondering if another man came into the scenario, I'm never going to get a straight answer about that. Like I said I know where I went wrong, moving too fast and getting to comfortable has got her freaked out. I know that we've only been together a short while, I know that taking a break could potentially put everything into perspective for the both of us. My biggest fear is that we inevitably officially break up and the 7 months and all the strong feelings that I've developed for her got to waste.
This girl is totally worth fighting for but recently I've been feeling like I'm fighting a losing battle, caught between just giving up entirely and digging in and manning the trenches.
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