conscience is catching up!
It looks to me as if you've already punished yourself by realizing the wrong you've done. In my opinion, though, matters can't get any better by keeping the truth from your b/f. I think it'll help both you and your b/f by being honest and telling him what happened. True, that puts you at risk of him breaking up with you, but if he really likes you, seeing as you have been dating for quite a while, he'll take the time to at least try to understand. Keeping anything big from anyone is hard - he's going to eventually find out one way or another, be it now or a couple months from now. And imagine how bad things would get if he found out you kept it from him. I don't know what to tell you. But I WILL say this - if you've done this before, is the relationshpi really going that well? If he was going to break up with you before, this may be a good reason for him to do it.. but it's your call. If the relationship's been OK, then he should think about it.
Good luck!
Oh, and about writing your feelings down. YES! Yes yes yes. I highly recommend it. I used to keep a diary when I was in elementary school, but hadn't kept one since. Now, I write in it constantly, seeing as I'm constantly worry/thinking/overanalyzing my fears, conscience, etc. It's a great way to vent and get things out of your system. Try it!
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