[Hottrodder246]

I am a 21 year old male and I seem to have something ruling my life... anxiety. It affects my appetite, my mind-set, and it affects how I perform in school. And my anxiety seems to stem from one thing... relationships with women. It's funny because when I'm in a relationship I get a sense of security and well-being. Kind of like a security blanket! But, when things end I go nuts, anxious as ever, very sad and depressed and I feel like nothing matters almost. This girl I was seeing for about 2 months just ended things with me the other day and right now I'm a wreck. I can't get her off my mind... because my security blanket is gone. This isn't the first time this has happened either, I've had floundering relationships ever since I graduated high school, that's when my first girlfriend of almost 3 years broke up with me. Ever since that, it has been the same story, my anxiety gets the best of me and I push people away.:( I'm just so sick of it. On a positive note I am seeing a counselor at my school for this very issue and it is helping. But, I'm on here to see if anyone has been through this and conquered it. I want to take control of my life and be happy. That's all I want.