My Ex boyfriend and a new guy
Well, I had been crying for a week over my ex. We had been separated for at least 8 months or more. We were together for a good solid six months and a year, I think. Well.. he was my first true love and I could not get over him. I got back in touch with him and he was dating a girl named Shannon. I did not tell him I liked him still, because I am not a homewrecker and I do not steal boyfriends. I play fair.
But he broke up with her a couple of days go.
But when I was crying and going through that, I had posted something on my Tumblr about it because I blog my feelings out. Well, I went over to my friends house and I slept over. Him , his sister and I got completely drunk off a Vodka because I was angry and sad, a whole bunch of mixed emotions about my ex. So A fellow blogger commented on it and gave me his number. I texted him and we have been talking.
He is the sweetest guy, handsome, can cook, knows what he wants, takes AP courses, good grades, smart kid, has been through a lot. And we have clicked ever since. There is sometime of feeling . But he has his problem of his own. Which I cannot disclose yet. But I think I have a crush on him.. well it is advancing quickly. But I cried so much over my ex, this new guy came in my life and this new one just seems so right.
The New guy and I were talking and he told me all the things he could do and I told him he was husband material and I was joking at said Marry Me. He said " in any other time I would be running to go get that ring but because of my situation" (He is in a love triange. And I am helping him with his problem and he was helping with mine) But he has been complimenting me on how cute I am and when I describe the perfect guy for me he said that I just described him and then he described the perfect girl for me and he described me! It was weird.. but I know it means something though.
Him and I were talking and he told me I was the only girl he ever loved out of all the ones he had dated. We had a good relationship. At the time my mom did not want me dating so I had to hide him from my parents, but his parents knew about me and they understood. But that is eventually what broke us up.(That is a whole other story for later) But I got really happy. And he wants to do this again.
I mean I want to but then the new guy hits home to me. He is just everything and he blesses my soul in many ways a guy never has. I mean he is amazing. I mean both of them are, but I do not know what do.
I guess it this is like a five pointed star romance soap opera:
My ex-boyfriend still loves me , I still love him, but I am feelings for the new guy and he has feelings for this girl who is dating his best friend. It is all so complicated.
Someone help me before I do something irrational.
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