Conscience is catching up!
I'm hoping you people can really help me out with this. My b/f and I have been dating for 1 1/2 yrs. During his sport season we manage to maintain a very long distance relationship. Problem is: within the last month I've cheated on him (3 times), while very intoxicated, and I mean VERY (although its no excuse whatso ever). Anywayz, I really want to tell him, but since I know we'll break up if I do that, I refuse to let him in on my secrets. However, I have come to terms with myself in knowing that I need to stop this. Its getting me nowhere fast, and I'm now just left with a really big brick on my chest, and feelings of worthlessness, incredible guilt, and a big ache in my heart.
Does this mean I don't love my b/f?
Every time I think about this I just cry and cry, and I don't know where to turn. Would writing my feelings down help? Perhaps burn it after (sounds kind of corny).. I'm honestly done with cheating, and now I just need help of how to get over my conscience.
Any advice will help at the point...
Thanks ~snow
p.s. do not even try to help out if you are just going to bash me and what I've done.. I know I've done wrong. Thanks
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