[GodeatGod]

I'm brand-new to this forum.
I'm not sure how the people on here are or what to expect.
I'm just looking for an ear and possibly some good advise.

I'm 18 years old. I graduated last June.
I've developed a sort of misanthropist mind-set.
I can't trust anyone or anything.
I want to be able to trust people, but everywhere I look it seems that people shouldn't be trusted.
I don't trust people even when they don't give me a reason too.
The only reason I'm typing this is because it's annonymous.
Still seems pointless.

It seems this mainly appoints to the category of love, although it affects my other relationships as well.
I fell for a girl my freshman year and all throughout high school I couldn't muster up the courage to tell her.
I felt that it wouldn't work from the start.
I was the typical stoner since grade 9 and she was this overachieving perfectionist.
Eventually something did spark, but before she found out about my true feelings she was already committed.

Now I'm in a fresh relationship with this girl of 15.
I think my distrust in everyone is preventing me from putting myself out there.
I don't take risks. I don't like getting hurt.
I'm very conservative when it comes to social gatherings, most of the time.
I don't know what I'm asking for anymore.

[Clough]

Hi, GodeatGod!

What sort of things do you feel that you've made real and positive accomplishments in your life so far, please?

Thanks!

[GodeatGod]

Hi, GodeatGod!

What sort of things do you feel that you've made real and positive accomplishments in your life so far, please?

Thanks!

Call me lethargic, but I can't think of anything.

[jamiepie]

Hey there, I kind of know what you are talking about. I had some trust issues myself. Still kind of do. But I have learned that when it comes to love,you just have to take a chance. You live and you learn. Its not that easy though bouncing back after your heart has been hurt, but just try to remember that everything happens for a reason. No matter how hard it is to see it at that time, SOMEWHERE down the road you will be able to look back and realize why it turned out that way. Hope you have a goodnight. Take care

[Clough]

Hi again, GodeatGod!

Well, you graduated from high school! That's a good and positive accomplishment in and of itself!

Did you have any types of classes that you were particularly good at, please?

Thanks!

[GodeatGod]

@jamiepie: Thank you for the encouraging words. I don't believe in 'fate' or whatnot. It's a little hard for me to believe that everything happens for a reason.

@Clough: I suppose that's a good accomplishment. I was very apathetic with my schoolwork, but English always tickled my fancy. I enjoy literature of many kinds.

[Clough]

So, do you like to write?

[GodeatGod]

So, do you like to write?

Yes. I do my own writings.

[Clough]

What kind of writings have you done, please?

[GodeatGod]

What kind of writings have you done, please?

Short stories and poetry mainly.

[Clough]

Would you mind sharing anything that you've written here?

[GodeatGod]

Would you mind sharing anything that you've written here?

"Muted Tounge.
Concrete Lung.
Dancing with the Devil is tons of fun.
But latch onto my shoulders, and we'll dance on the sea.
Because something inside of you takes me"

this one has a little more sentimental value then the rest.

[Clough]

Hey, that was quite clever!

Why does it have more sentimental value, please?

Thanks!

[GodeatGod]

I suppose because it was written with someone specific in mind.

[Clough]

Did you give a copy of it to that person?

[GodeatGod]

No. I didn't.

[Clough]

Have you ever given a copy of what you've written about someone to the person for whom it was written?

[GodeatGod]

No. I have not. I've shared some of my work with certain individuals, but nothing on a personal level.

[Clough]

Are you afraid that whoever you write a poem for might not like what you've written?

[GodeatGod]

I'm afraid to disclose my feelings in a personal manner to anyone. I think that has a lot to do with why I write.