He was having marriage problems and I realizing I had married young, wanting an out
So are you still married? Or divorced are what??
One drunken night he expressed his love to me. Things happened between us but then he pulled away
to go back to his wife and kids
Your friend has his own problems, and I think it best to leave him alone, and keep the boundaries of good behavior intact. Let him deal with his own unhappiness, and home life, without your influence or giving him an easy way to solve his problems by cheating. That does neither of you any good.
I have fallen in love with him and feel that I can't live without him.
That's a fantasy you built in your mind, because you think he is interested, and you know him.
It would still be cheating, and you already know his first loyalty is his family, NOT YOU!
I want to know if he loves me? Does he still think of me? Why does he keep calling me or looking for excuses to see me?
I don't think so, your just a port in the storm of his life, and
should really put a stop to his inappropriate contact with you.
Your an easy target for him. Don't be.