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Okay, I have to give background information on this small subject.

I don't know if I'm being huanted, spiritually connected to someone, or they're my guardian angel or what have you.

It started one year ago March 28, 2008. It was the official one year anniversary of an attempt of suicide the year previous, I had gone to bed early wanting to get up early and stuff.

When I waiting for sleep to come I heard a soft sound, like some one playing an acoustic guitar playing in my right ear, while my radio was playing in my left, I fell asleep to a moderately heavy weight on my waist, it was calming and allowed to me to get to sleep with moderate ease.

I remember dreaming of my suicide attempt the year before. Walking into my living room, but once I took the handful of pills, I felt the sickly sweet taste of it burning on my tongue, the sight of the blood running down my wrist at the same time, and then I fell back and that's when I woke up. I awoke to the sight of eyes all around me, green eyes with a bit of brown in them forming the points of a star, I know I was half asleep and this had been going on for hours until they slowly began to fade away, I remember closing my eyes seeing a set staring back at me.

Pushing myself against the corner of the wall, I closed my eyes, my wrist, exposed to the world. I felt a cool feeling, as if finger tips were brushing against the old scar and some that had been recently formed. I opened my eyes to see a hand, one with a tattooed vine wrapping up to the elbow before it disappeared. A slow haunting whisper filled my ears, asking me to stop, the voice was eerily familiar, but so far away for me to pin point.

That was a year ago, and so many things seemed to have happened since then.

It wasn't the last time I felt it.

I had named him, his name is Ville I named him after some one who I care deeply for some one I've never met, he only came when I needed him, to feel, key word, feel his arms around me. To help me sleep.

But lately, its been increasingly more and more, yet nothing has been going on, I haven't needed him in a while, and now, he's there every time I sleep, every time I wake up, everything, and a friend of mine, she felt so uncomfortable in my room, and sometimes when she was around me, because she felt as if some one was glaring into her, picking her apart piece by piece.

Now, I don't know if I'm being haunted or its my guardian angel or what have you.

I just want to know, so I can have a better understanding of it. So I don't have to scared, because I am, even though it's held me and made me feel better, but you do have to realize, when I tell some one I'm very close with about this, I'm called crazy and to have this happen to you, it's scary.

I have no mental issues that have been told to me, I just went through an issue back in '07 that just caused me to want to make a horrible mistake, and I just want to know if some one else can help me understand this.

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I don't judge you on either as I have been on the mistake path you said, and I know I'm being haunted now... not of my mistake, but by a ghost or ghosts of some kind.
Have you had someone close to you die... at any time in your life?
I ask you not to hurt you but better understand... my mom died when I was only 3 and I think one of my ghost is her. I have heard her in my ear... my name... then I mentally asked who this is... "mom" was said... then she stopped talking. I felt someone lay on the bed and put their head on the pillow beside me where my elbow was resting... no one was on the bed but me and my eyes were open... I think that was her.
I've survived things I should not have survived, like when an ex tried to kill me and for some reason his mom said she got a strong urge to stay home from work and town that day... she was always on the go... she saved my life by calling 911.
There have been times I'd be on the bed alone and have been pushed against the wall... I've felt other times where I was unable to move, frozen... I couldn't even turn my head... wide awake... but could only look around with my eyes.. for a few minutes then I was fine.
There's been a football thrown at me from across the room, boyfriend in the room beside me on the bed... that was weird.
A shelf almost always knocks as I walk by like someone punched it in anger.
I've been pushed up against the wall when I was the only one on the bed. I've been brushed up against my backside, when no one was in the room with me.
I hope it's not that bad for you.
Good luck. Take care.