What do I do?
I feel strange. Occasionally, suddenly it feels like my consciousness has been pushed aside - my movements feel more fluid - I can't tell if they seem quick or slow, but I am still deffinately in control, but not... I can't explain. It doesn't feel like me walking. This doesn't happen all the time, but it happens very suddenly and will last a little while - I don't know how long.. I don't notice when I stops, I don't think.
I have been very down lately - since around last June, but it isn't constant, I get a few days or week where I will cry at anything or nothing. I feel worthless and have had thoughts of suicide - the thing which turned me from those thoughts was the impact it would have on my relations.
I rarely have a day that is happy or content - something will get me down - but I don't know what. I start crying and then find myself makig excuses up about what I'm crying about - I start thinking of things that have made me cry and it gets worse. I don't know what causes it.
I'm starting to gte scared, I really don't know what to do. Please, anything.
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