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Hello There,
I am currently living in a situation where I am emotionally abused on a daily basis. I am living at home with my mother and sister and my child after a relationship breakdown. To the outside world I am confident and carefree. I am the one my friends come to for advice. The problem is my mother, career wise she is held in high esteem people look up to her.it's very stressfull. I have suffered from depression and panic attacks for most of my adult life. My mother never hit me until I was 17, and I probably deserved then. The thing is she is very insulting in the event of a row she will hurl insults referring to things I had done as a child how I have destroyed her life, how she wishes I was never born how I have cursed her life, How I dissapoint her what a terrible mother I am How she hates me, how I disgust her. I have sought help for my panic attacks etc in the past and was given medication she sneers at this and jeers me, she makes comments about my weight ( I put on a few extra pounds after the birth of my child). This living situation is really getting me down but financially I am stuck at the moment. Sometimes when she is really furious she will punch me try to choke me knock me down. She goes into a rage. I know this type of behaviour, is so wrong. The way she treats me really gets me down. I am so embarrassed I could never say it too my friends. Despite being so abusive towards me she depends on me for so much. She thankfully does not treat my sister like this. I cannot understand why she treats me this way when all I have done is support and stand up for her throughout my life. Can A mother hate their child so much?

[talaniman]

How soon will it be before you can stand on your own?

You don't have to take abuse from anyone, not even your mom. Stand up for yourself, while you make a plan to get out.

[hodgech1]

Distance is the key to your breakthrough with your mother. Then prepare yourself because it will get worse when you get on your feet. All mothers aren't good mothers. There is something in you that she wishes she has. She is not happy with herself, so she uses you to bet up on instead of herself. Try to start getting as much money as possible to get your freedom. You can don it. 1 dollar a day and smile all day everyday with the thought that you will leave. Let this be the guide to your path of freedom.