Am I going to die?
I know that is a pretty overdramitic sounding summary of my question. But here it goes. My name is Barbie my birthday is July 23rd I'm 32. I've been experiencing severe depression for the last 3 years. It started pretty suddenly. I have suffered from depression my whole life, but the last 10 years or so I have been doing pretty good then one day I got in the shower to get ready for work and the next thing I knew I was curled up in a ball naked in the closet with my husband standing over me asking me what was wrong. I have done my best to keep it at a minimum but I have started cutting again and have been very suicidal. I am receiving help from a counceler and am taking meds. I know I sound like a nutcase, but I'm really not. I'm just trying to understand this and although I feel silly saying it, I feel as if I'm being "attacked" by something evil. Something that wants me dead by my own hand. No, I don't hear voices, but I have always considered myself somewhat "sensitive" and I don't like what I feel around me sometimes. I have had many supernatural experiences in my life and usually I haven't been afraid, just surprised. I have had times that I feel terrified for no reason. Anyway, I was wondering if anyone "saw" anything around me or had any ideas. Am I going crazy or is there something that really is attacking me?
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