[Clough]

I'm still here...

I'm not sure that Wondergirl left. It's possible that she might still be "cloaked". I made myself visible as being online when your question appeared because I wanted to make sure that you knew I was still online.

[Wondergirl]

I'm here, have been sprinting into the kitchen to wash dishes.

Would you be available to do something for a few hours several mornings?

[needhelp kutchs]

Sorry folks!For being rude

[Wondergirl]

I just turned on my "porch light" so you can see me now.

[needhelp kutchs]

I hate all these Army Wives around who just dress around like manequins and waste their lives gossiping.. I fear I will become like them too

[needhelp kutchs]

Wondergirl say something... Clough...

[Wondergirl]

May I ask where you live? In what area or country? I'm guessing Canada.

[needhelp kutchs]

No no far far away... although human maladies are universal... I am in India

[Wondergirl]

Ah. You had spelled "recognizing" with an "s" so I guessed British, and am partially correct. Your husband is stationed in India and you are U.S. citizens? Or you are Indian? (I work with several delightful Indian women, so am just mostly curious.)

[Clough]

How you are is mostly a matter of the choices that you make for the way for you to be. Sometimes it can be hard and take a lot of time to realize that.

[Wondergirl]

Do you have the use of a car? Are you near a village or city? Are you trapped on the Army base? Tell us about that. It will help us understand what you are up against and perhaps what opportunities you have.

[needhelp kutchs]

You I regret all the wrong choices I made... I am an Indian living in India

[needhelp kutchs]

Absolituely trapped in the Cantonement

[Clough]

The reason that I asked about writing poetry, is that I'm wondering if you have ample enough outlet for your self-expression artistically, such as in the writing field.

Not being able to express oneself in some sort of artistic way, (there are many, many ways of self-expression and to me, how one does them is truly an art), can cause a person to have anger and resentment built up in inside of themselves because of the lack of being able to self-express.

[needhelp kutchs]

Please don't mind my Spellings... going crazy you see!

[Wondergirl]

ya I regret all the wrong choices I made...i am an Indian living in India

No, not wrong choices. I don't get that feeling. You are in a certain place in your life now, and you (and we?) will figure out how to help you keep all of you intact and happy in that place. (As life goes on, those places change and new opportunities pop up, so you have to stay on top of things to watch for them.)

[Clough]

ya I regret all the wrong choices I made...i am an Indian living in India

Being regretful, and I might add, feeling guilty, if that's the case, can hamper a person's ability to move forward into the future with a positive and proactive plan and attitude. It's best not to be letting the past govern our lives in the here and now. We can't undo what has happened in the past but only learn from it and move ever onward and upward with our lives! That too, is a matter of choice...

[Wondergirl]

Please don't mind my Spellings....going crazy you see!

Your spelling was perfect--British education.

[Wondergirl]

I think the first thing you have to do is stop kicking yourself.

Promise us, from this moment on, you are going to do your best to think positively.

You have two new friends (both of us very smart and good at problem-solving). We plan to walk you out of your dark tunnel. We have flashlights to guide you out.

[needhelp kutchs]

How to move forward with my life... Clough that is what I cannot figure out... that is what makes me so angry... and when I see my husband so happy and contended with everything in life... I feel even more frustrated and guilty and sick and angry...