So torn. Can anyone relate?
I am having issues. My ex boyfriend / friend in a different state searched for me for 3 years and found me 3 weeks ago. We haven't seen eachother in a decade, but he felt strongly like he had to find me. At first I didn't know what to think because I have been married for four years. I feel such a strong connection to him that I don't have with my husband. We broke up in the first place because we were young and dumb. We have both grown into cool people and feel so strongly in our guts for eachother. It makes me sick to feel this way since I am married, but I can't help how I feel. I am not a bad person and don't want to hurt my family. I will add that I have never cheated in my life. My husband wants me to stop chatting with him (understandably) or it will ruin our marriage. I know it seems insensitive for me not to stop, but it's not fair to me because I don't like to be controlled. I might as well be a robot otherwise. I just think there may be a reason why this all happened and I can't ignore it if it's fate. I don't want to hurt anyone and am so torn. Another thing is my husband and I are so different and don't have many experiences in common at all. It was the opposites attract thing. I just don't know if that's enough. My ex gives me something inside that I don't get with hubby and that is why I can't ignore it. Does anyone understand me?
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