[Nestorian]

I can't seem to stop my mind from rolling over all kinds of scenarios in my life. It prevents me from living in the moment and just enjoying myself. I never feel at ease, and always feel stressed. I prevents me from living. I'm not really depressed, but the stress from thinking all the time is killing me. I try meditation, I take pills for depression, I talk to people, I try doing things, but I'm kind of broke so there really isn't much I can do, but I do lots of reading. I work at a grocery store, and make very little money. I'm trying to go to school or become a Police man. What ever I can work out, really I can't do any thing if my mind is so tightly wrapped up in what has happened, what may or may not happen. I'm so frustrated.

I've read a book called, "awakening to your life's purpose" and that only made things worse. I can't seem to decide on any thing. Please help. This is destroying my life.

[jolienoire]

I can't seem to stop my mind from rolling over all kinds of scenarios in my life. It prevents me from living in the moment and just enjoying myself.

What type of scenarios are preventing you from enjoying your life?

[KalFour]

Hi Nestorian,

What you're saying sounds very familiar to me. What kind of thoughts are plaguing you?

Are you over-analysing everything all the time?

How much time do you devote to sitting back and relaxing? If you don't give yourself time to be alone and mull over the issues that are important to you, they can often interfere with your day to day life.

As for the book, it might be making you see problems where there aren't any. What in your life is causing you problems?

Kal

[AKaeTrue]

I can't seem to stop my mind from rolling over all kinds of scenarios in my life. It prevents me from living in the moment and just enjoying myself. I never feel at ease, and always feel stressed. I prevents me from living. Im' not really depressed, but the stress from thinking all the time is killing me. I try meditation, i take pills for depression, i talk to people, i try doing things, but i'm kinda broke so there really isn't much i can do, but i do lots of reading. I work at a grocery store, and make very little money. I'm trying to go to school or become a Police man. what ever i can work out, really i can't do any thing if my mind is so tightly wrapped up in what has happened, what may or may not happen. I'm so frustrated.

I've read a book called, "awakening to your life's purpose" and that only made things worse. I can't seem to decide on any thing. Please help. This is destroying my life.

When doing other things, try to stay focused on the task.
You may continually catch yourself thinking and end up giving up on the task that was meant to distract the thinking.
If that's happening, you have to keep reminding yourself that "Hey! I'm Doing It Again" and get back to the task.
You may have to remind yourself a hundred times, but don't give up!

When talking to people, leave nothing out. Tell them who, when, why, where, what... spill it all out.
Talking about exactly what's going on in your head is helpful, can't leave anything out.

Also, if you want, write your thoughts down here... maybe it will help... can't hurt to try.

Remember, we can "coulda shoulda" all day and night long but
It won't change anything that has happened. It will only make us sick.
You want to try and learn to refocus on what's to come - all the good things to come:)

[Choux]

Why don't you take a course in transcendental meditation or some other kind of meditation from a guru?

That could possible be very beneficial to you, and for the rest of your life.

I think it is possible that a lot of people are plagued by thoughts, they just don't talk about it. Getting a lot of exercise is very helpful in improving a person's mood... proven scientifically. Make sure you have plenty of exercise every day. :)

[Nestorian]

Well, I appriciate the advice all. I will deffinately look into them ideas. I will tell a little more now.

The scenarios are anything from "what may or may not or has happened when i talk to a girl or talked to a girl i like." to "my boss riding my at work." to "what should i do with my life." to "why can't i stop thinking all the time!!" They usually plays out like this...

I think to myself, (Girl I like.) "i'm walking in to a room where she is standing so smart and beautiful. Me, being of normal or rather regular Physical condition, stands there infornt of her, but wait she is up set. Crying, what do I do? Aks if she is OK, if I can do anthing for her, and try to cheer her up, with a light joke, or a vioce I do some times. {on the other hand she could just be fine, and ignore me.} or [I can walk up to her and she will say hi and I'll say hi and nothing will happen.] Mind you I play my parts out in my head, almost to the point of talking out loud, and even doing some of the very actions.

I used to do this in school when i was about 6 -7, becuase school was so dull and uninteresting to me. I never listened and never learned to read, i was always to board. So i never leared to read write, or write properly and such. really it was my own fault for not just doing what was asked of me. But i was young and a child. I'm not sure. Any who i never really stoped doing this scenario making thing, to make things better. Usullay it was about beinga hero of some sort. For example if i had seen an action flick like say batman, then I'd be obbsessed about that all day every day for days, or transformers, and such. I just never figured out how to get out of it, and no one really knew anything about it, my teacher did say a few times that I was lost in my own little world.

(boss at work) " i didnt' finnish my work again! He'll be pissed this time. Damn it why can't I be a faster worker... {I used to think it was just me bing slow but now i know it's cause i dont' focuse on account of my constant thought. It takes a lot out of me too, i get tired really fast and headachs a lot. Any who back to my thoughts...} I'm going to get fired and then where will i be?? Take a deep breath and let it go, i'm not a bad worker, i'm a hard worker, just a little slow. S@*T, i can't keep this up, it's bringing me down. I will loose my job!! No job, no home, no money no future, no nothing. What would i say to him when he comes to talk to me?? "I'm sorry I can't finnish in time Sir, I'm not sure what slows me down but I'm really trying. F$#k this I quit, and I'm not coming back." then my boss might say "Damn it! Calm down Nestorian. We need to work thorugh this." Or "You're not fast enough we need to let you go." great now i'm not going ot beabel to do any thing." It's like that a lot of the time. I do try to tell myself that, it'll all be all right, and things will be better, this too will soon pass, and I'm here now not latter, because latter is latter, and may never come to pass. I feel crazy and useless.

I'm getting more into my meditation, but I feel I need more help, and there isn't much of that where I live. It's a big city but it's very hick and redneck. Needs more open ness and less carelessness.

Thank you all for your help, I'll keep trying these ideas. Then again, I wonder if I simply just let go, and let it be if it won't just fix it's self. I mean really in my thinking isn't it the idea of getting something or some where that drives my desire to gain? Maybe I'd be OK if I just let it go, nad simply did what I always do.

Thank you again, and Peace be with you.