I'm losing self respect, I'm starting to break down
I need help I broke up with my boyfriend and decided to moved on pretty well,suddenly after months he start to make contact and we met up eventually. After meeting him I was depressed I begged him back but he is seeing someone now. I told him to stop making contact if he didn’t wanted to get back with me. He asked me to wait for three months, He will try to break up with her and ask her to move out.
Months later, few days before valentines he called that his girlfriend will move out end of the month, and he told her that he wants to get back with me. She asked him to go on a Valentines weekend with him. I begged him not to go but he just said this is the last occasion she asked to spent time with him before they broke up. This is where I feel so confused. I even sent him flowers to his work he called only after he received the flowers in the morning to say thank you and didn’t bother to call at all after that. I sat and cried and I know I shouldn’t have done it but I sent him lots of text message not to go and how bad I felt that I wasn’t his first priorities and that he was sending me mixed signals.
I have recently lost my job, I am fighting a lawsuit against my ex employers, all I do is obsess about him although I do have a very nice gentlemen who comforts me but it’s a long distance relationship but since he is from a strict conservative religious family, we only keep good relationships and meet ones every 2-3 months. Most of the time I feel I can be suicidal. NEED ADVISE I'M LOSING A LOT OF SELF ESTEEM, SELF RESPECT, I need help.!
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