Hi Old Granny :)
You had a tremendously heavy hit with the sudden death of your family in the tragic accident. I wonder if you have worked through that heavy load of grief or if you took the much too common approach of trying to avoid dealing with your feelings about all that.
I understand that you said it was a long time back. However, grief remains inside until it is allowed release. It can "ooze" out or "leak" in various ways, including physical symptoms. I do not know if this applies to your physical symptoms or not, or perhaps part of them, but it may be helpful to explore this with a counselor qualified to offer support for grief.
One issue going on now may be an underlying fear of separation from your daughter, which, as I understand it, would leave you totally alone as far as family is concerned.
I trust that through this forum, and I commend you for your venture here to ask for help, and elsewhere, you might find the answers you need.
Whether the info above is helpful or not, I hope it will be encouraging to know that I care.
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