[outis_ismyname]

So Its winter break and I should be happy to finally be away from school for a while. Its strange then that I can't even feel a twinge of good will from anyone. Maybe its just me but I feel totally alienated from my friends. My family has been very kind but often a bit rude to me. Since christmas I decided to try calling a few friends to see of we could hang out for a while. I had asked them prior to the break if they had anything major planned after christmas, most said 'nothing in particular'. I guess that nothing is quite a something.

Every time I sit down somewhere I feel extremely lethargic, empty and bereft of the will to get up. I just want to sit around and do nothing, which is something I dislike incredibly. On top of all this I recently realized that I'm in love, and the girl is a close friend. As far as I know she is out of town right now, but every day I feel more and more empty. To try to get past the feeling I have been playing video games.

Now the enthrallment of video games has begun to wear off, and it will be a whole week before school starts up again. Is there anything I can do?

Thank you so much for reading :)

Edit: In all honesty I didn't know whether to put this here or in relationships or other people :/

[SBowman]

You might not be outcast by your friends or family, you might just be hitting an emotional slump at the moment. Nothing is permanent, so this issue will blow over whether you want to do something about it or not, but the best you can do is hang in there, at the very least. If it does become unbearable, you would want to talk to a close friend one at a time, and this doesn`t have to be in person, this could be on the phone, on the internet, or however you want it, and then slowly move it into person.

If friends aren`t available, siblings or cousins can help you. Parents, although they try to be understanding and helpful, many have difficulties seeing their child(ren) as something other than their child(ren), so its difficult for them sometimes to understand issues they might see differently, and that could hurt you even more given the situation. So if you appeal to family, try someone near your age, or preferably a sibling who`s mature.

Regarding your love issues, there`s not much you can do about that until she returns. Firstly, unless you`re completely sure its love and not lust (as 90% of it is), then you need to accept that harboring feelings of love will most likely hurt you even more, so you need to prepare yourself before doing anything on that.