[akms]

I'm having trouble with everything in my life if anyone cares post anything on this cause I'm probably going to kill myself if there's no one who will care if I die

[METERRE]

Can you name anything in specific about your life that bothers you?

[METERRE]

Can you name anything in specific about your life that bothers you?

[Clough]

Okay. So what's going on?

[akms]

I am transgender female to male its probably in the dictionary if you don't know what transgender is I have no friends my parents are divorced I'm deslexic so I have trouble with homework and on and on whenever I try to go to sleep the silence brings back all my problems then I can't sleep so I'm practilly a zombie

[akms]

Answer

[akms]

Answer

[akms]

Please

[Capuchin]

This isn't like a chat room, be patient and people will answer you.

[akms]

I can't go to sleep this is is the only thing that's keeping me from tieing a slipknot in my sholaces and hanging myself

[Capuchin]

Try writing a little more about how you feel and why you feel that way, it will help people to help you.

A lot of people in America aren't awake yet, so you may need to wait a few hours for most of our members to come online.

[akms]

o.k apperantly I have manic deppresion I am currently on hormone blockers I think I have night time anxiety because everythings scary and depressing when your lying in bed and everythings pitch black even though your eyes are open

[Capuchin]

I think you definitely have some deep problems and should see your doctor so that he can direct you to a healthcare professional who can best help you.

[akms]

o.k apperantly I have manic deppresion I am currently on hormone blockers I think I have night time anxiety because everythings scary and depressing when your lying in bed and everythings pitch black even though your eyes are open you know what I mean. My parents are getting divorced wich alone is living hell I see a shrink but I'm never deppresed when I see her because when I'm depressed enough to talk abot stuff its usually around 3 in the morning on a Monday. I read news paper articles talking about bush (little idiot he is) or I'm at the sk8park and someone thinks that queer pple chose to be queer
And I want to hurt someone so badly that they understand what kindve pain I'm going through

And whenever I think of the future all I can see is me killing a bunch of pple than killing myself

[akms]

Oh yeah and I have a healthcare professional

[Clough]

i am transgender female to male its probaly in the dictionary if you dont know what transgender is i have no freinds my parents are divorced im deslexic so i have trouble with homework and on and on whenever i try to go to sleep the silence brings back all my problems then i can't sleep so im practilly a zombie

Perhaps playing the radio quietly with tunes that you like when you are trying to go to sleep would help you. When my daughter was younger, she used to do this.

[akms]

Perhaps playing the radio quietly with tunes that you like when you are trying to go to sleep would help you. When my daughter was younger, she used to do this.

There's nothing on the radio its all something from the 70's or its some dude who thinks he's cool because he's so shallow/self centered that he's talking and calling it singing

The music I like is my chemical romance, Linkin Park (not there new album), red jumpsuit apparatus, gym class heroes, panic at the disco you get it and I don't have a radio anyway

Id listen to my iPod but my headphones are so cheap that no matter how much I turn the volume down it still hurts my ears and plus I figured id be more tired if went to slep for 3 hours then if I pulled my own version of an all nighter

[akms]

So that's not my real problem

[akms]

Caffeines going to get me through the day any way so...

[Clough]

Do you have a television?