MayfairLady, your advice definantly helps. I think that the root of my obesssion is since I was a child. I never had friends and instead of craving friends I would want that one man to sweep me off my feet (I think I watched cinderella one too many times lol). This goes back to the 4th grade. In high school I had a few friends and was into sports and academics, but this thought never went away. Even in college when I played basketball for my University, I still felt the same way even though I was popular and smart. Now at age 28 I am very successful, preety, and in good shape but I think my past thinking is a hard pattern to break. I am trying to get better. I have a couple of friends whom I can relate to. The book "The power of now" by toll is very good and I am trying to adopt what he says in there about staying in the present and eliminating your mind of time. However, a lifelong way of a thinking pattern is hard to break overnight.
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