[sadbuthappier]

Hi,
I am just about to begin a brand new relationship which I truly believe will be a wonderful experience for me after 2 failed marriages, the most recent which ended happily for me last year.
However I have some very deepeotional scars that I am terrified will ruin this new relationship before it has a chance to blossom. I have explained some of my troubles to my new partner and at the momnet he seems very understanding and patient (which I am ot used to ) but am unsure how much of my past he needs to know, though most of it will explain why I cannot yet open up to him fully either emotionally or eventually sexually.
My previous ex-husband while did not batter me physically, he did drain me of all emotionand nw I haveno self esteem or confidence, my mother and step father also did the same but my mother stuck the boot in by revealing 2 yrs ago that I was conceived as a reslut of her being raped and then went on to virtually blame me. (constant lies throughout my childhood had made me disbelieve this story of my conception).
I now feel totally numb from the neck down, violated and abnormal and although enjoyed a close call with new fella, really don't feel that I can give him all that he deserves and don't deserve the same in return.
HELP:mad:

[s_cianci]

I am sorry for all that you went through. I hope you're not expecting this new relationship to fix everything. I'm not saying that it won't be successful but it certainly won't be if you expect it to carry a load that it can't bear. Have you considered counseling and/or therapy? I think that that would go a long way in helping you heal and enabling you to have successful relationships.