[JacksonC]

I am a person who has all ways been seen as a happy go lucky person by peers but I have all ways been a person who never feels like I fit. I am 25 now never been in a long term relationship all ways seen as a the " great friend" I was born a girl but I don't feel like one on the inside I don't look like one on the out side and am often called a man not going to lie that makes me feel happy on the inside I have been knowen to try and drink my problems away witch never worked for me and tried a lot of drugs to help me feel good but it allways got out of hand I am so sick of feeling like and not being sean as the man I feel on the in side. I don't have the money to have my tits taken off and all I know to do is drink and drink and drink this away I have not had a drink in all most a year now and this is the hardest time I have had with this I am in a job that I get screamed at every day and I am scared . Scared that I am one going to drink and I know that if I drink I can't stop of if I pick up a drug I can't stop or two I will end it all. Don't know what the next right thing to do is if you can help pl e-mail me [email protected]

[joypulv]

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I'll say that your solution lies in finding others like you, and there are plenty of women who look and feel like a man. We don't all get the same amounts of hormones, and women can have a lot of testosterone and not as much of the female hormones like estrogen (men have those too, in differing amounts too). Or you might just have developed a personality and character that would rather be a man.
Sexual preference can vary too. Chaz Bono explained on TV not too long ago that she feels like a man but isn't a lesbian - I'm not sure if she is attracted to women or not, but maybe she means she is attracted to straight women. Two famous lesbians are Ellen Degeneres and K D Laing. Maybe they feel the same as Chaz, I don't know, and don't really like to label any of them. There are many nuances of gender identity. Try doing some searches about them and about online groups of women who feel like men.